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LSS: Tangled Up in Me - Skye Sweetnam.

Yes, that is the song stuck in my head right now. I've no idea how or why, but it just is. Now the song made me realize a couple of things I usually do. And I know those are the same things that other girls have done, are doing, and will probably do in the foreseeable future. I'll struggle to explain and share what I *ehem* know and do not know.

(some lines are taken out because they are only repetitions)

See? I mean, let's face it girls. We really tend to be vague at times. Not just tend, we even mean to be vague. We would purposefully hold back what we truly feel and this confuses the members of the opposite sex. When asked about relationship-related stuff, we give answers one second then take them back the next. We send out wrong signals. We like guys but we push them away. We mean to say sweet nothings but we end up saying nothing at all-- which isn't very sweet, by the way. Our insides are itching to tell those guys that we heart them, but what? We avoid confrontations. Weird, weird, weird. And to think that we are fully aware of such crap.

Those are my fave lines. And for me, they are the ones that really reflect what we imply when we do what we do. In my personal opinion and experience, I push guys away for two reasons-- to keep the "thing" from happening and to see how much they're into me (kapal!)

The former is really all about "kung kame talaga, eh di kame". Pushing people away is usually done to cut short something that might cause pain in the long run. (e.g. avoiding future hurts from a relationship). Most girls actually push guys away because they're scared of getting into something that's too risky. But in reality, they wait for the guys to make their comebacks. Now if the guy is that serious, he'll definitely return with more effort and assurance. It's now up to the girl's "security level". Will she give in or push all over again?

But I don't really get it now that I thought of it. What if both parties believe in "kung kame talaga, eh di kame"? Then both of them would be waiting for the other to make "the move". Both of them would let things be and let "destiny" run the rest of their lives. Where does happy ending fit in this kind of picture then? I. Don't. Know.

Moving on, girls definitely like guys to be "sensitive". They want their guys to know them enough to distinguish what is real and not. It's like claiming you're ok and then this guy looks you in the eye and says, "Tell me the truth". When girls say/do things opposite from what they mean to, they want guys to know "reverse psychology". I don't really know why I do it-- saying/doing the wrong thing on purpose, that is. Hmm... probably because I don't want to be too obvious or that I'm too shy/scared/worried of admitting my true feelings. (Eew. This is really starting to get shitty.)

I also think that some guys actually find the magulo-ness of girls cute. It's like adding more fun and spice in the whole process of falling in love. And the more that they do not understand, the more they find themselves getting into these girls. As for the ladies, I think that each one of us don't mean to be evil when we torture these gents. It's just that some things are better off implicit. Who would want to further complicate something that's complex enough on its own, right? We just hide because we want to feel the magic of being found. Am I right or am I right?

Ok, I think I'm gonna cut this short. It's too complicated to put down in words. I, myself, am lost for words. Did I confuse you more? Sorry! I even succeeded in confusing myself. Haha. There's really nothing I could do to make everyone understand both sides. And I'm kinda glad that that's the case. Love is too beautiful a thing for analyzation, after all.

One thing is for sure, though. Guys and girls both go to the extremes just so they could get tangled up in each other. I'll be damned if I'm not guilty of this one. ^__^